Peniaphobia

Is there a such thing as a phobia of being broke? According to a Google search there is. It's call Peniaphobia and I think I have it. Peniaphobia is defined as the "fear of poverty or being placed in a situation of lack." Ya'll I literally break out in a sweat if my bank account has less that a certain amount in it. I hate feeling like I can't go and purchase what I want (and often times those wants are only things like food, gas, clothing for my children, etc).  Just the thought of not being able to provide for us makes me physically ill. I guess that's why I'm such a hustle woman. If I can't find a job? I create my own company and employ myself. If my oil needs to be changed and I can't pay for it? I change it myself. 

I also think growing up broke as hell attributes to this phobia. I don't want my kids to EVER know what it's like to eat corn flakes with water 3 times a day in the summer. Or to look forward to going to school everyday because you knew that at least two hot meals were guaranteed. I don't want them to know what it feels like to never get a new pair of anything. Granted I LOVE hand me downs but I want them to get the feeling of opening a new pair of shoes or a new shirt. I love the fact that they have a nice home to live in. I love the fact that they both have tvs in their rooms. I think it really boils down to me wanting my children to have everything I didn't (and I don't just mean materials). 

As far as I'm concerned, I think a lot of the things I do for me now are to make up for my desolate childhood. I get my hair fixed and nails done because I know how good it makes me feel JUST to be able to do it. Some folks may call me materialistic... I say whatever makes you happy is what you should do. Granted, I'm one bargain shopper when I do shop but I have no issue shopping (*cheese*). All in all, being a broke child, teenager, and hell young adult has taught me to work hard and never stop hustling. I've learned a lot in my 25 (plus a few) years on this earth and one of them is...

I'm scared of being BROKE!

Night!

You Can Catch More Flies With Honey...

Than you can with that jacked up ass attitude you're sporting. Can SOMEONE... ANYONE... tell me why some women are the way they are? I swear if I hear one more woman tear "all men" down in one breath and complain about not having a "good man" because there "are none out there" I may just scream and pull my hair out strand by strand. (and if you know me you KNOW how precious my tresses are to me)

NOW, don't get me wrong... there are some trifling sons of bitches out there. You know, the ones that lie about the girlfriend (or worse wife) that's at home waiting on him to bring the pull ups he left 6 hours ago to retrieve from Baby's R Us that's now closed and has been for 2 hours.  Or the one who has the unsuspecting girlfriend who doesn't know they broke up because he doesn't really have the balls to tell her. Yeah them... 

HOWEVER that doesn't mean that ALL men are liars and trife. There are some GOOD men out there ladies but you can't see the sugar for the shit.

A small word of advice. Stop asking your girlfriends (who are probably lonely and dried up too) about why men do what they do or why they think the way they think. I'll be willing to bet if you pull a man to the side and ask him... you'll get more than your girlfriends speculations. Also, can we PLEASE stop with this "independent" talk? I mean yeah I GET that you can run the office from 9-5 but ya'll gone have to learn to HUMBLE yourselves sometimes.  It's ok to let a man be a man. It's ok to let him open your door. Hell it's ok for your "buy my dinner because I have a cooTch" ass to pay sometimes. 

Make a man feel like a man... show him you care... show him you need him (even if you don't) and I'll bet you all will be sending out save the dates in the near future. If not... keep doing what you're doing. It's working well for you, right?

*end rant*

Night!

Give It A REST Already...

Ok people...

I know I shouldn't give this any more "media" attention that it already has but can we STOP with the Mike Vick shit already??? I'm tired of seeing pictures of dogs, people with dogs, people without dogs but want dogs, and the like parading in front of television cameras bashing Mike Vick and how he should never be allowed to play football again. Can we STOP with the double standard already?!? The man pitted (no pun intended) DOGS against each other!!! It's a sad world we live in when four legged creatures with the IQ of a nut are valued more than human life. 

Like... I love T.I. but how this n-word gone have MACHINE GUNS (among other DEADLY weapons) and get a reality show and a reduced sentence?? My theory is this: Mike Vick committed a crime against white people by killing their beloved dogs. T.I. committed a crime against black people (b/c his plan was to blast on a few niggas, right?). We are ALL (or at the very least SHOULD be) aware of the racial disparity(ies) in the Criminal Justice system and this shit here is a PRIME example of it. 

I was reading an article in the AJC this morning and I saw this quote: 

“I don’t even feel like living in Hampton anymore — that’s how adamant I am about him being here, and I’ve lived here all my life,” she said. “I hope when he comes here that he’s not as comfortable as he thinks he’s going to be.”

I immediately researched some crime stats for Hampton and came across this:

• 1 in every 634 people are registered sex offenders (notice the registered... no telling how many are molesting folks and aint got caught yet).
  
• In 7 of the last 9 years Hampton's murder rates were higer than the national average.
• Folks in Hampton like to steal... and by steal I mean ROB your ass because for every 100,000 people living in Hampton 200 of them had been violently robbed. (as per CityData.com)
• Oh and property crime is off the chain... actually there are 3306 property crimes per year per 100,000 people living in Hampton.

Now you may say... that doesn't sound like a lot. I beg to differ. The population of Hampton, VA (in 2006) was only 147,000. (http://hampton.areaconnect.com/statistics.htm).

I said that to say this: to the idiot who is uncomfortable living next to a person with a "god awful" dog fighting conviction... stupid ass you're more likely living next to a rapist, drug dealing, murderer who steals your cars, jewels, and potted plants. Uggh 

*stepping off soapbox*

I would end by saying Mike Vick I hope you recover and become the NFL MVP for the next 26 years... but that's about as likely as the people of Hampton, VA inviting him to sing kumbyah at the next camp meeting.

Have a great afternoon folks!

Wow....

I'm convinced... I love the hell outta myself. Like there are days when I look in the mirror and get aroused. *smh* It's so much so that my new theme song is "Wow" by Kinfolk Kia Shine. As GHETTO as the song is it goes HARD on the chorus. Even better than that one line in the song says "Everytime I get dressed... I start a new trend." Isn't the absolute hotness? 

Here's the ghetofab hoodtastic video: ( I tried to embed this shit but it wouldn't let me... so anyhow..)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LOsCHtMgtAw 

Moving along... I said I would start blogging again so here goes. If I don't blog just nudge me and hold me to it. I really enjoy it and I love the fact that my stories make people laugh, sometimes I just don't feel like doing this shit.

So I'm extremely excited about my weekend. I don't have a THING planned (really) but just knowing that the weekend is coming is enough for me.

Before I go, I want to pose a question... do you have anyone in your life that just annoys the shit outta you? Like their mere existence makes you cringe? Like when they speak your skin crawls? I do... and it's beginning to get on my FUCKING nerves

*scuse my french*

Night!!