MY LIFE IS A MOVIE!
Mercy, I've had so much go on since my last post that it's not even funny. I'd get into all of it but I don't like negative energy and I'm almost sure talking about all of that would make me want to slap the hell outta somebody. So I'll do what Jesus would do and give up that ghost.
Remember me saying how important positivity is? That hasn't changed, as a matter of fact I strongly believe my positive attitude (on most days) is the reason for the things I have in my life now. While I can't say that I have the "ideal" American Dream I have the Will of God on my side. Everything that has happened, is happening, and will happened is because my Abba said it would and it's what He wants. NOW, the hard part? Accepting just what it is He puts on my plate. For example:
Single Parenting... is hard as shit. I mean, I make it look easy but there aint a thing easy about going from having ONE set of 2000 parts (tm Mr. Amazing) to having 6000 parts to wash (and no I didn't count on my fingers) every day. There aint a THING easy about your child asking the hardest questions on Earth like "mommy how did I get in and out of your belly?" There really isn't a THANG easy about having to make ends meet when it looks like the ends are on opposite ends of the Earth.
Mr. Amazing... I'd be a boldface lie if I said that having this man in my life isn't challenging. As you very well know, I'm a diva.... probably the BIGGEST Diva that most of you know. I want my way, I want to be right, and I'm a know it all. Everyone accepts this as gospel *drumroll* EXCEPT him. It's one of the reasons I love him because he challenges me. He forces me to be better and bigger. He ACCEPTS me...
NOW, I've subliminally put this message out there before but I'm just gone go ahead and say it; IF you find a man or woman who will really truly and genuinely accept you knowing all your dirt, shit, mess, and any other word you can think of that just aint good? You better hold on to him/her and treat them like the blessing they are. I call this man Mr. Amazing because not only does he accept me and all my potential baggage but he accepts my children. Since being single and dating I've noticed that children aren't seen as the badge of honor they are in society. As a matter of fact I've had more than one man tell me he could never date me because I have children. I guess I was out of the game so long that I didn't know just how "taboo" children were but I tell you this... any woman who's ashamed of her children ough'ta be dragged out and shot. I guess that's how Susan Smith got caught up. Ladies, any man that wont accept your kids can't accept you. That means you don't need to be together. Ironically, Mr Amazing's mother told me that. Her approval of me also meant a lot.
Now, some of you are like "why is this Mr Amazing" a mystery... he isn't. I'll leave it at that.
G'night People.
Signed,
Blessed to be Happy Again
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