Soundtrack of My Life

Today I sat at my desk and wondered what songs would describe my life (over time and now). I put my iPOD on shuffle and just let my mind wander. I said that when I got home and got settled I'd sit and listen to all the music I have on shuffle and see what I come up with. This blog entry has the potential to be fairly long because if you know me you know music is a HUGE part of my life. There will be a mixture of songs here because I'm fairly versatile and I'd be surprised if it didn't take me hours or days to do this. I'll try and write a little "why" on why I chose each song but some of them will probably be self explanatory. Who knows, you may even learn something new about me.


*Warning* If you can't appreciate music... leave now. Giving music to someone to me is the greatest gift outside of love that one can get. Sit back, relax, and enjoy. 


Here goes:


Happy Being Me - Donald Lawrence feat Angie Stone





This one should be self explanatory but for the sake of non assumption... for a long time I didn't love me. If I'm being honest I didn't even like me. I didn't respect my body, my calling, my beauty, or anything else. Listening to the lyrics of this song made me fall in love with me all over again. I thank God for revealing my true "soul mate" to me. Her name is... Me. 

So happy being me, I'm regretting nothing

bout me. 

Too busy living life giving love... freely

I'm s

o happy being me

Still in Love - Beyonce

This is one of my favorite songs of all time. I love Beyonce *duh* but more than that I love "love" and "loving." I love hard and with all of me and I'm extremely loyal until... well I feel like it's pointless. This song touches me in so many ways. My favorite line in this song is:

I love you... more than music (This line says SO much about the person she's singing to because as an artist to love someone more than what makes you breathe is saying a lot)

How Great Is Our God - Full Gospel Church Fellowship

I've been through SO much in my life yet I haven't committed suicide, homicide, or some other 'cide.' If that doesn't speak to the greatest of God I don't know what does. He saved and forgave ME... of ALL people He loves ME. Which brings me to another touching song...

Just For Me - Donnie McClurkin

Just for me... and you too. 

Independent Women Part II - Destiny's Child

Don't depend on no man to give you what you want. Keep that in mind next time you hear this song...

I Need You - Jill Scott

I could be a congresswoman or a garbage woman, a police officer or carpenter. I could be a doctor and a lawyer and a mother and a 'good-god woman, what you done to me' kind of lover I can be. I could be a computer analyst, the queen with the nappy hair, raising the fist, or I could be much more and and a myriad of this. Hot as the summer, sweet as the first kiss. And even though I can do all these things, I need you. 

Confused yet? I know some of you are like... now how you gone be an independent woman who needs someone? Easy, we all do. I'm probably the most dependent independent person you'll meet. I can do anything...no really I can (and I've said this a gazillion times) I just don't WANT to have to do everything all the time. The hard part about being a person like me is recognizing what you don't NEED to do and letting someone meet the NEED for you. Master that? Stress won't be your middle name anymore. 

Believing in Me - Monica

This ENTIRE song speaks to my SOUL now. I've done some pretty foul stuff in my adult years but I had to apologize and forgive ME for doing what I've done. A part of that process was forgiving everyone that I felt like had wronged be and MOVING ON. To do that it takes believing in yourself again (or for the first time... whatever suits you).

...so i hope you can forgive me I'm not gonna be the way i used to be starting over can be so scary but I'm gonna believe promise I'm not gonna let me down and my transformation starting right now...

You Don't Know Me - T.I.

*Warning Explicit Lyrics*

Boy if this song aint the TRUTH? Goodness gracious I've experienced so many people who "know" me but have no idea who I am lately that every time I hear this song I go crazy. The lyrics are right on point.

Yeah you know they call me "T.A." but n*gga you don't KNOW ME...

Nothing Even Matters - Lauryn Hill feat D'Angelo 

(both of whom are stone cold crazy now... but I digress)

"Be who are you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind..." - Dr. Seuss (originally quoted by Bernard Baruch)

Can't Hide Love - Earth, Wind, & Fire

Can't hide love... I stopped trying to a long time ago.

Can I Live - Jay Z

*Warning Explicit Lyrics*

I'm a HUGE Jay-Z fan. I happen to think he's a lyrical genius. This is my ALL time favorite Jay-Z song. It has been and forever will be. If you've never listened to it but have heard it.... try again.

I'd rather die enormous than live dormant that's how we on it

Far Away - Kindred (The Family Soul)

Have you ever just wanted to disappear? Just go to a far away land and be "happy?" Have you ever gotten yourself into a situation or relationship and years later forgot the reasons you got together in the first place? I did. Good thing I learn from my mistakes...

Jesus Take the Wheel - Carrie Underwood

This song is deeper than a lot of people know. I remember when the song first came out people would laugh b/c I'd constantly be somewhere yelling "Jesus take the wheel..." I wasn't joking... how do you think I am where I am today? I pulled over and let Him drive. 

Jesus take the wheel... take it from my hands... cause I can't do this on my own. I'm letting go...

Cowboy Take Me Away - Dixie Chicks

I'm country so sue me... this is one of the prettiest love songs I've ever heard. It's so simple just like me. The smallest things make me happy like bugs, dirt, and nature. I love to be barefoot. I'm a Southern Belle. I even have a "twang." *bats eyelashes*

I wanna touch the Earth.. I wanna break it in my hands...It sounds so good to me

Ironic - Alanis Morrisette

Story of my life... Irony. 

Survivor - Destinys Child

Through the irony... I survived.

I'm a survivor I'm not gone give up I'm not gone stop... I'm gone work harder

He Always Makes A Way - James Fortune

The title is enough to make me go IN... and whenever I feel like I can't see my way out I listen to this (and a couple of others). James Fortune has a way of writing music that you "need."

He brought you through.. and He helped you make it.. through all the pain... He will come through. There's one thing that you must remember about my God... He always makes a way.

Look Up - Tye Tribbett

Looking up requires faith because you can't see where you're going. *nod*

 I cant keep on ..somethings gotta give... this is no way for me to live I get so frustrated sometimes the very things I do I hate it sick of falling for every trap thats set for me its time for me to have the victory but I found my answer in the word he gave with every temptation theres a way of escape and I believe every word is true so I know what I gotta do.

Chains - Kirk Franklin

I have no words... the song says it all.

The Closer I Get To You - Lutha *pause* and Beyonce

This is actually here for one reason and one reason only. I remember getting a DM that said "999-999-9999" (that basically said.. yeah so are you going to see what's in front of you or keep coming up with excuses as to why you are blind?) It's not for anyone but said person to "get"

Angel of Mine - Monica

Angels are real. Period

When I'd lost all hope.. you showed me love

**record scratch - I'm getting tired. I've been at this for hours but before I go I MUST include my favorite song of all time. No seriously... if I have a funeral I want this song played. I'm so sincere.**

See you later folks,

*giggle*